I want to be better. I don't like the me now. Like seriously, being me sucked. ALOT. I never get the things I love. I want someone who I can talk with, someone I can hug and chit chat like there's no tomorrow. I couldn;t find a really 'best friend' where I can talk to. No I can find no one. Whenever I get one, they will be nice at first. Then they'll talk behind your back as if they didn't know that you already know the fact. They just continue and continue talking and talking. It's a never ending cycle. Maybe I wasn't good enough, but please I don't want all this too. And so I don't like to be dependent on anyone else. I want to be alone. I hate being judge. i hate being me

Hunter Hayes - Wanted (Lyric Video) Love love love! :)

Boys Like Girls - Be Your Everything

:) <3 I miss you. Like seriously, ALOT.

I don't understand.

It's so weird that people would misunderstood my words and spread to other people's mouth. And soon the whole school knows. And people are talking behind my back. Like seriously, I don't know anyone from that school LOLOLOL well maybe 2 or 3 and it's not your business to know whether I'm in a relationship or not. Even if I'm in a relationship, it wouldn't be you people to bitch about. -.- And stop asking me about all this unwanted lame stuff. My status doesn't always meant to type for any guys. It could be a girl. Janganlah perasan sangat -.- And now, I need to delete all the status that made you people feel so suspicious and the blog post I've just did like yesterday or the day before yesterday (Y)
Conclusion, Facebook is a scary place LOLOL

A reply.

Wokay, to be honest, for the first time, I actually felt comfortable to talk to a total stranger. Isn't it obvious that we don't really know each other? xD But for now, I'm pretty sure that you're someone who'll love anything that meant alot to you. You're a straightforward person as you told me the other day which I like that alot :D Tell me anything you want to say, just don't hide or lie to me then everything's gonna be okay. Oh and you're someone whom I can talk alot with! :D

I personally believe that when everyone meets someone new, they would like to be a new them, a new, better personality and so I didn't ask anyone else about what kind of person you are bla bla bla. I want to know you more, all by myself without any help from other people :P

Hahaha! Sorry, I don't know what else to write lah :P Promise you i'll try to understand more about you lah V^^V 

I don't know lah :D

Lets make life great. Start studying yo peeps :D

HAHAHAHA

What's your name? You look attractive HAHAHA

Aim for 2012? :)

Well, not too late to set my aim eh? So I'll try to have what I want within 2012 :P
1. Get good grades in every exams. 8As for PMR.
2.Merit or distinction for piano Grade 5 practical test.
3. Get myself abs.
4. Reach my baby spike.
5. Try getting myself scholarship to Singapore.
6. Be a cheerleader.
7. Be more flexible.
8. Bring you down (:

Hoyeahhh :3

Stars

OH HAI! :D well, sorry i've not updating the blog for like a month? or 2, well  don't know. So, how's life going on? I've just finished my exam and is free for like another 2 weeks? Oh well, back to the main topic. LETS TALK ABOUT STARS! :D <3
Okay, I've been so random these days :P I'm a person who's madly in love with the universe. I love stars, i love galaxies, i love milky ways i love moon etc. Don't you people find it interesting? Have you even wonder how stars were formed, how does it feel like to be in other planets? I personally want to go in the black hole. I know it's ridiculous but it seems pretty fun to go inside. People said: 'YOU FOOL, YOU MIGHT DIE IN IT AND YOU'LL NEVER GET OUT!' But who cares? If i get to choose to be dead for the things i love, it's okay :) I would rather die in happiness to fulfill my dream.

'To get what you want, first you have to start dreaming about it, then work as hard as possible to grab it ;)'

Stars stars stars, how i wish i could go there and grab one but I won't be that stupid to grab the star as it will burn off my hand immediately x)

isn't it pretty? :)

Oh yeah, holiday's around the corner. Going anywhere? :D #Ineedtogotoaquariazoopetrosains

Truth.

Oh hey there, I wasn't in the mood to write a blog, but still, sometime struck on my mind so quickly that I don't know who to tell. Okay, so  here, there's a guy who once liked me. I am a person who can't make decision that fast, I'm always in a dilemma. I hate making decisions. I drag all the way to just run away from decision. And yesterday, he sent me a text, asking me stuff. He said I'm a liar. My heart went down as if i've lost my heartbeat when i saw that text message. And i didn't said he's the guy who'd had hurt me. I'M THE ONE WHO'D HAD HURT HIM LAST TIME. Weird isn't it? And he said I've lied to him again? To be honest, I don't really know whether I'm lying to him or not. To me it's just I didn't tell him stuff. Didn't tell and Lie is 2 different things. There's a difference between LIE AND DIDN'T TELL. You can't want me to just run over to some place, screaming at you and tell you everything. If you asked, I'll answer. And if i was about to lied to you, I wouldn't had gave so much explanation. If i was about to lie to you, my answer will just be a YES or a NO. I'll answer your question without thinking back then. You wanted that answer yes, I'm sorry i didn't gave it to you. If i was about to lie to you, I will just say yes yes yes. In the end, both of us still get hurt. You said I'm Selfish. Yes, I admit I am. I know what I'm doing right here. I know who treated me good and bad. I know who i've hurt last time. I remember it clear as crystal as if it just happened yesterday. You asked me to not talk to you anymore. Do you know how much it hurts? You were once a guy who is everything positive, and that is why i didn't give up on you. I use the time thinking about what to do, everything else. And if it was other people, i don't need a second to just say no. And sometimes I'm just afraid that it will just ruin our friendship like this. Anything is it, if that is what you want, you'll get it. I'll try to give everything back to you. I'm sorry that i didn't fulfill my promise towards you. I'm just so fucking sorry for everything i've did. I know i can't do anything else. I know you wouldn't be trusting what I've said. I've just ruined everything. Every single memory. EVERYTHING. I'm sorry, I shouldn't had started everything since the very first beginning. I'll go away from you. If you think that I'm a bitch, it's your choice. I got no rights to say anything else. Whatever it is, it's my most sincere apologize. Bye.

Sincerely,
Vanessa KMY.

To get or to lose.

Oh hai peeps! :D heh, it's been 4 days since school starts and it's like hell to me already. Waking up that early and sleep almost 1 everyday, Wooish, sad stuff (Y) yeah, there's tons of index to draw, tons of money to collect since I'm the treasurer of the class, tons of homeworks and more. It's tiring. And then there's one day when a friend told me to accept that guy and I don't know what to do. To lose him again, or to grab the chance to have him again? I can't make it. I regret for making decisions too fast and clumsy, and in the end I hurt people and myself. I don't trust people. And this is why my relationship won't even last for 3 months. Sad right? Well, people betrayed me bazillion times, and yet I'm still trying to act like nothing happened. They've lost my trust entirely and they'll never gonna get it back. I may be the one who is cold blooded, but it's what that make me stay up for that long. The expressionless face that I have in me make me feel nothing much when something happen. Kay then, wish me luck for everything and do tell me what decision i should make! (;

*wooo I sound like an emo freak hahah!*

Say hey to 2012 the awesome number!

Hey there! It's 2012, time flies. In a blink of an eye, 2011 had passed so quickly and wonderful. Though there's tons of unhappy stuff, lets just forget about it (: start 2012 with a fresh life, a brand new Vanessa. Let things go through the flow and don't care about other stuff too much (: And I cannot believe I'm a PMR candidate now ._. It's like, I'm still too young for it xD HAHA! Anything is it, Happy 2012 people, stay beautiful, handsome and cheerful! :D